Welcome, friends! At this point, I'm still living at home and working at my internship everyday. Most adults seriously have begun to question my assertion that I am, in fact, going to college. In California. When? Soon.
Ohhh, quarter system. Whatever; I don't mind having a longer summer. AND, I leave on Saturday morning. Isn't that friggin' insane? One. Day. Left.
There were some points this week and last week when I started to get serious jitters. What craziness was going through my mind? Here's a collection of examples:
"Hooooly crap. UCLA is like, huge. The freshman class ALONE is 5,000? Competition is going to be insane! What was I thinking??"
"I'm gonna be a straight-up mess dragging my luggage from LAX to UCLA. A straight-up mess. I have, like, 3 huge suitcases!! It's gonna be awful. Why did I say I was going to do this all on my own??"
"The flight is 6 hours...think about it. You're literally flying to the opposite side of the country. Why didn't you just choose Brandeis?"
"Are people going to hate me because I'm from the East Coast?"
"All of the people on my plane are gonna be so pissed at me when I lug all my crap to my seat. Sorry, people. I have my entire life for the next few months in these bags....it's all legit, I swear. They're my essentials."
"Everyone in LA will be tan and perfect and gorgeous....and then there'll be me. Remind me again why I thought this was a good idea."
"Wait....I'm not gonna see Bella (my cat and the love of my life) for how long??"
Soooo yeah. I freaked out here and there, once or twice, about random things. However, I've gotten past that hump and am just psyched and beyond excited to go. I finished packing last night, and obliterated all of my fears and doubts as I crammed and finagled all of my crap into my suitcases. Getting everything in order for my departure made it all real, and I was just so excited when it finally sank in. This is real. I'm going to California and I'm going to college and I am so flipping excited!
It's not that I'm not nervous or scared about going anymore. I'm just focusing on the excitement and adventure and thrill of college that has always been by my side while I fret and wring my hands. It's so much better to focus on the positives, don't you think?
I trust that everything will be fine. I really do. Time to head to the glittering Los Angeles, folks.
Are you ready?
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