The Last Full Day of High School

Gosh, I'm so torn about all of this. My last real day of school: over.

In one way, I'm feeling really uncertain about the future. It's going to be sad to leave such a familiar lifestyle and setting behind.

For example, I ate my last lunch in the cafeteria today (the usual spring mix salad with cucumbers, sliced almonds, turkey slices, and cranberries). I will never prepare another lunch for myself as a high school student. Of course, I'll still be busy with my mother and father's salads/sandwiches during the next few weeks, so I won't go through complete withdrawal, but it's insanely weird to think about.
I've made it through at least 10 years of school without ever really having my lunches prepared for me. Let's see how college dining goes...no doubt, I'll be happy with our top ranked dining facilities and amazing LA establishments. It's a good four years to be a college foodie :P

Also, I had my last VHS periods in the library...the god-awful technology in that place gave me a proper farewell by making me go through three computers before I could use a functioning "Netbook". I swear that I will never miss those Satanic creations. They shut down on you, give you godforsaken excuses to block you from logging in, take five months and three weeks to load, deleting all your work because of a distorted keyboard...so glad I'm done with that crap. Typing on my old MacBook feels like paradise in comparison <3 It's Apple or die, I'm afraid!

I'll be completely honest; in most cases, I'm a wicked sentimental person. I save all of the letters that people write me, and often take photos of the letters I write people. (Yeah, I write letters to friends. Old-fashioned and proud. I'll conform when I die!)

Thus, it's almost impossible for me to feel no sadness over finishing high school. There's so much that I've been through here. So many memories. So many great times...and so many bad times, too. I'll get into more of those stories when I have time.
Most likely, I'll post a variety of throwbacks in college when I'm feeling all sappy and mushy and emotional about how "the time has flown by so fast and now we're all at different points in our lives and aren't together anymore". We'll see...I'm usually pretty good at being honest to myself. It's both a blessing and a curse.

Anyways, I am definitely happy to be done with high school for now. There have been countless times during these years when I've honestly felt unhappy with the people and environment in which I am surrounded by. I promise, I don't mean to sound unappreciative or careless; it's just that I truly feel like I'm not at all in the same world in which my peers are. It's simultaneously comforting and depressing. Ah, well...I can deal!

When I talk to friends sometimes, I feel disillusioned, like we don't understand each other or we don't mesh the way we used to. It's a terrible feeling, you know? That's reality, though. I still love them and see them as my friends, but we've all changed so much and the distinctions have become so obvious these past few months.

I'm ready for college. I'm so ready for independence, to get thousands of miles away from the bubble of protection that is basically my entire world right now. I've gotten many tastes of an independent life before, and I've loved it every single time. So, I think I'm right to feel completely comfortable and enthusiastic about life at UCLA.

I just wanted to post my thoughts after coming home from my last day of high school, officially. It was nice; filled with cake, food, and casual conversations. Pretty predictable. Anywho, we're wrapping things up here at Westborough High School and are so close now to so many events. The next week or two should be suuuuper exciting and fun. Still so much more to come! I'll continue to give updates! For now, I need to get in some z's, because I've been seriously deprived of those lately. Good night! Peace and love, my friends.